Life

To whom who never frowns

2010-02-25T02:27:00.004+08:00

To whom who is fighting a battle of perseverance and determination.
A tough situation which you are caught in between.
As a person whom never fails to frown. No matter what situation.
I pray and hope for the best, of health and joy.

Though there isn't much that i could do.
But, my time is always ready for you.
In return, i just want a smile from you.
The next time i see you.

=)

*Cheering for you*

Darel
Pierre
Lee

Bimbo You owe me lunch!!!

2010-02-15T15:23:00.002+08:00

Viewers this post is not my daily updates. But due to the fact that some one is treating me to lunch, i have to post this.

Okie, this is how it all begins. It started out with the exchange of our handphone numbers on the train. From that very moment you ARE alreadi very bimbotic. I gave u my phone, and u jus held it like nobody business, then u kept looking at my phone and asking me why i hand it to you. -_-

And the bimbotic you just keeps getting worse! The second time u clearly stamp a bimbotic word on ur forehead was in the train with me and dzul!!!! don denY! i have witness!!

MRT train- " Khatib!"
*bimbo walked out, but didnt step out of the train yet*
Me and dzul- "Bye!!!!!!!!"
*bimbo turns back"
Bimbo said " eh khatib only! wrong stop"
*bimbo walks back not being malu about it*

The fact is, she had to stop at sembawang, and we travel back towards jurong from YCK! Smart right? yck to sembawang one stop..

Bimbo doesnt realise she's a bimbo, and still lives in denial. Wait WAIT the best part is here!!!!!

The other day we stayed back in sch. And i turn my L4D2 on to play.. SUPERB! bimbo became Very not bimbo!!!! Super scary!!! All funny, weird and alittle unusual words kept coming out from her. Some i don even think exist or can be found in the dictionary. I TELL YOU! never let a bimbotic girl play violent games. i SWEAR it was super scary! She was even more scary then the zombies in the game. >.
But once the game is over and it was time to head back... it was back to bimbo self again. Another thing!! bimbo girls has no balance!!!!! And they have a thing for guys tits! i swear! haha!!! Next time i needa wear like 5 layers of clothes to protect myself.

(303 words)
U OWE ME LUNCH!!!!!
No offence okie? haha!

Super Happy!

2010-02-15T02:02:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!

new year was alright i guess.. i didnt reali had the celebration mood.. Spent most of my time on the phone with 'Bimbo'.... Finally! Though i didnt had the celebration mood, atleast some thing reali did made my day.. not jus that day, but also the following days to come too. (all thanks to facebook) HAHA!!!

OMG! i'm like so missing every one in sch.. HAHA!!! one more epic thing, HANNAH msged me bcs my house was too noisy, and she complain to me... Now, i owe her bubble tea~ OMG! she's super cute...

~ I ain't no mr perfect. I havent been consistent. I lack of courage. ~
~ Its alright if i fail. I'll make the most out of what i have ~

-It's no doubt only you, could make me smile widely-

Darel
Pierre
Lee

I ain't no hero

2010-02-09T01:08:00.002+08:00

A battle won, but a war which will just go on and on. How many battle's do i have to battle till i reach my goal? Only a week left... I'm such a failure.

-The way i see it, i was just being stupid-

Darel
Pierre
Lee

Direct or indirect.

2010-02-07T18:08:00.003+08:00

It's been days, and it hasn't been easy for me. The things bottled up inside is just way too much for me to hold on any longer.

-In my dreams is where i see you, but once i'm awake, i know it was only a dream.-

Darel
Pierre
Lee

Never give up.

2010-02-06T10:41:00.003+08:00

When life is being a bitch to you, it's best if u bitch back at it. It never fails to remind you of the negative side, thus we always have to look it's positive side. Why rush through life, constantly thinking of the next step? when the current step hasn't ended yet.... Key thing- Enjoy!

-It was never 'me' to begin with, it was 'us'-

Darel
Pierre
Lee

Dear diary.

2010-02-03T23:15:00.004+08:00

In just one week, so many things happened... Most of it was just pretty fucked up mess. Even the biggest container will one day be filled up, and it will start to over flow.

-Inside, i'm screaming.-

Darel
Pierre
Lee

Knocked Out

2010-01-31T23:46:00.002+08:00

Root to evil, remedy to unhappiness! We Drink!
It was a super epic night, we drank so much... that i got a major hangover, the next day. C***e drank till he puked.. >< super! i like.. damn it man, it was awesome...

Next week is gonna be another busy week again. Damn i need a real break, i'm getting all choked up... Okie, i'm still having headache, shall do my work instead of blogging.

-Some things are not meant to be heard or known-

Darel
Pierre
Lee

It never fails to surprise me.

2010-01-29T23:33:00.005+08:00

Okie, its's been ages since i last posted. Not saying that i'm busy, but i'm just too lazy to post. Many things happened... Still, life can't get any better.

Ganesh: remember, no matter what happens. Number 1 rule, just be yourself.. Only then you'd know who reali appreciates you for who you are. It doesn't really matter what the outcome is, whats most important is that 10 years later, u won't think back and feel like a total douche because u did so much but still the outcome is the same. WE ARE SAINTS! (though i'm away for 5 years).. <3

Some one once asked me, " Are you satisfied with life so far?".. Haha, swear to god, i kept going on and on, till he got tired of listening...

How do you really know if your satisfied with life?
1. Family
2. Financially- just enough to get by
3. Have tons of friends!
4. Don't ask for much.

1+2+3+4= Satisfaction.

-What don't kill you, will only make u stronger.-

Darel
Pierre
Lee

Christmas

2009-12-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

My oh my. Its been a year already, i remembered my last Christmas i was at Australia watching the television the whole day. Had a silent Christmas. Well.... This year it equally the same.

I guess Christmas came early for me, and it ended early too. Come to think of it, its like waking up in a middle of a perfect dream. Hmmm.. i should start to getting back on track. No more fantasy or dreams. Its back to reality for me.

Hope everyone is doing well. Merry Christmas to all of you.

Darel
Pierre
Lee

Its been a long time.

2009-12-18T18:47:00.003+08:00

Ohhh, dear diary, dear diary. Its been long since i last updated. ><

Its finally holidays, something which every one has been waiting for. Exams was alright i guess.. Think i can pass all my papers, as for the grades... for now, i think its best i not think about it.

I officially declare, this holiday sucks. I cant believe a fall sick on the first day of holiday. i'm pissing blood from my nose and mouth. (SHIT!) oh well... i'm recovering, so i should be alright.

There's gonna be like tons of soccer match coming up... but of course, there are tons of sch work which needs to be done during this sch holiday.

Darel
Pierre
Lee

Suckers!

2009-12-06T15:42:00.002+08:00

It destroyed my week end! Freaking guy just had to kick me. Argh! hmmmm..

Saturday woke up early to get ready for the event ( kick it 09 ), the even was awesome balls. Though there were some changes in the game, but we had fun ( before our match ). I think SCL kick off was so much more organized and better. Well, my week end is pretty much screwed due to my injured shoulder. So i played guitar like every sec. Good think Claire left his guitar over, or else i don't know what else i could do. Hope i can get our soccer pics soon.. then i'll upload it. =)

Darel
Pierre
Lee

When life gets bored.

2009-12-04T15:32:00.004+08:00

Its been ages since i last update or even take a look at my blog. Been really in school lately. Test and all. Fell sick some day back, it felt like shit.... hmmmm.. jus gonna upload some random pics taken by me...

2moro have to wake up early for kick it 09. Hope we can make it far. Its gotta be hell'a FUN! =)

Darel
Pierre
Lee

My new Toy!

2009-11-12T21:17:00.001+08:00

So loving it! Just bought the long bar.. wanted it for a long time, but it keeps getting sold out. FINALLY GOT IT! shiok!

Darel
Pierre
Lee

For you.

2009-11-12T19:24:00.003+08:00

Swt! back to blogging... bcs my sis requested it. haha.. alright.. so much things happen, yet i don noe wad to type.. This few days/weeks was super a-w-e-s-o-m-e!

this pic was taken during Saturday. Had a friendly match against vic's team. After the match, we jus kept playing on the road with incoming cars at full speed. HAHA!

This pic was taken on sunday. Celebrated kenny's 18. Met new friends had dinner, helped out. That night was cool. Then i had to rush back to meet clair for soccer.

Same thing, in jus this few days, many things happen. Hope everything goes well, for everyone, especially my sista! <3

Darel
Pierre
Lee

Tired.

2009-11-04T20:49:00.001+08:00

Seriously, things aint going well. Time for isolation. Sry guys. i have too..

Band

2009-11-01T13:16:00.003+08:00

One of this pic is our band photo. Hmmm.. Recently hanging around with everyone in sch. Played soccer, this and that... Nothing reali much to blog for now, busy with work. Currently doing lab report, plus 2moro have test, and haven study! sianx! oh well.. bye!

Darel
Pierre
Lee

First Weekend!

2009-10-24T01:35:00.006+08:00

ZOMG! epic! our first weekend break. wha, i'm missing sch alreadi le! i wanna go back sch, to LEPAK! haha.. Though its jus one week of sch, but many things happen, apart from the happy side, the bad side were equally bad.

I know there are many questions in one heart when a problem arise, i noe you all mus be thinking why is it that sadness always fills our life. I'm a nobody to reali advice or answer, but hey.. Sadness is a stepping stone to happiness, without sadness there wont be happiness. Sadness is just like a heavy rain, but once its over, a rainbow will appear.

For my friends who are facing relationship problem, there reali isnt much advice one could give u, bcs in the end the choice is urs. No one is forcing you to choose or do things. U have the power to decide. I know that its hard to face reality when shit happnes, i understand how all of u are feeling right now.. But come on, its not like i wasnt like that before? i have my own story too... what do u guys mean when you say ' i love you, and i cant live without you' ? is it for real, or is it jus a way of showing how much she/he mean to you. When u think that he/she is the right one, but in reality, is it for real? or is it jus some emotions getting you in ur head? I read books, i had close up experience, but in the end. 'Love' is not everything. Imagine if ur ugly or poor or smelly or un desirable. Will the person whom you are with now, love you as much?

We have to enjoy our YOUTH now. In another 10 yrs time, we are adults, and wont have our youth back alreadi. But love will stil exist. Yes 'love' is also part of youth, but we also cant neglect others, like friendship and education. I am so enjoying my youth right now! haha.. ZOMG! i jus had like another 10 more person added into my 'friends' list, argh! i'm glad to have all my friends. Love them all.

I also get to noe that certain some one is talking about me, oh well. If u are reading this, then please. Get on with life! How childish can you get? and how long do u wanna remain like this? it reali is a pity.. But i wont blame you.. you made ur choice.

And finally! FUCK!!! MY ANKLE hurts la sia! niiiiii naaau hiaaa!! ASS!!! that ball from yani, i reali KO sia! some more got cb china bang me... WTF! sia la!!!!!!!!!!

Darel
Pierre
Lee

Part 2!

2009-10-21T21:16:00.010+08:00

Alright got the next batch of photos up! I'm so hyped after chalet! argh.... sch was okie la i guess.. teacher was good, class was fun.... FRENCH WAS EPIC!!! i like...... =) i got my french name.. super gay! haha.. its called- Pierre... muhahaha!!! today got SCL meeting also.. it was okie, fun.. haha alright la.. blog till here.. don noe wad to say alreadi.. plus having a headache.. BYE!

I lost a battle then,
But won another,
I'll be a man in the end.

Party!

2009-10-16T00:15:00.004+08:00

Everything was awesome OH! Love u guys! serious! haha... I guess there is more to life. And all of u all are what makes my life worth living for. NEXT CHALET! MUS STAY OVER!!! haha!

I'm missing those times now.. aww... =(

I lost a battle then,
But won another,
I'll be a man in the end.

Lingers around me.

2009-10-14T15:45:00.002+08:00

Some how or rather, it still lingers in me. I know that at this point of time its hopeless. But its something inside that u treasure so much, and its kinda hard to totally chuck it away. But, i'm trying... i got too much to lose if i carry on like this...

Alright! 2moro is mega morphine! shit! today mus slp early, 2moro needa go get stuff with nich and fel. Hope i and clarence can wake up. This few nights we both damn ass hole, staying up till like 5 in the morning then slp. Then he keep complaining hungry and bored, mother fucker reali needs to get laid man! ( And pls! i not bad influence lo!) Come on la, we're in poly le. What is bad influence? its peer pressure! haha.. Oh fuck man! i'm running outta cigs needa go get some soon.

I jus had news that my band has a new pro key board. NICH! haha... weak man! >< so now, we needa get our covers done first, while completing our first song. Alright, 'PrettyUgly' is working out. Once sch start i hope we can get it going again like last sem. Fuck man! peter in shanghai now, wonder how is he doing.... finding hookers? smoking? drinking?(he cant drink) =)

Every one is special in their own way, every one needs some one special to make them special. Special people is treasured by most people. Its the people around you who makes you special, and if u still don think ur special. Kiss my butt! =)

I lost a battle then,
But won another,
I'll be a man in the end.

Knock Out.

2009-10-13T17:34:00.002+08:00

Superb! today slp till like around 2? Jackson kept barking in the morning, shit! had to wake up and give him a nice smack, then went back to slp.

Seriously, totally! this holiday is coming to an end man! haha! Then another freakin sem, then next thing u noe, 2nd yr. Shit man! Don have time too lose le! i needa get on with life. i don wanna live my life thinking back that my poly day sucks, bcs i was emoing my ass off.. Like i said to myself, when everything is over. I'd finally be a man, i would know my path and walk the direction i long abandon.

Its time.....

Sry guys for making you worry and all. Don worry. I think its time i do something to myself. When sch reopens, everything will begin, nothing has ended, everything is jus going to begin. Lets all hope and help one another making the journey a smooth one. Life is too short to be unhappy. And to my bro's, hey come on guys. Cheer up, we have a long way ahead, don give up.

Fuck it!
Darel's Back!

Drowning.

2009-10-12T20:05:00.002+08:00

Lack of slp, drown in pain, bursting into tear.

How long can i go on? I cant breathe, cant feel, cant smell, cant taste. Everything is slowly, slowly shutting down. Slowly, slowly vanishing.... i'm never letting it go....

I gave love up,
LOVE
YOU enter into it.

Lose it.

2009-10-12T00:14:00.003+08:00

Everything just seems to not make sense, the colours all just faded and suddenly, life became dull. What's really got into me? I reali don noe, but its like no matter wad u eat has no taste, what u see is colourless, what i hear is not getting in. I just feel that i'm starting to shut down towards everything around me. Nothing is made to last forever, eventually everything, everyone has got to leave. One by one, u watch them leave and you know deep down inside, there is nothing you can do.

What is friendship? Love? How about trust? respect? Do people really grow up, or will they jus remain the way they are? If i'm gone, would it be a solution? or just, an excuse to escape. I wanna try total isolation, but will it work? Fuck! there is just so much in my mind now. People who takes important things and see it as though its nothing, will they fucking grow up? Gosh!

Those who are reading this post, have u ever wonder how many people have u hurt so far in all ur life? Do u have a clue that what u had done now or in the past had a huge impact on others? Hurt travels from one person to another, if u don see it. Then _|_ up urs! Fucking wake up please. Every one has prob and obstacles.... if u think ur's is big and bad, wake up man! I seriously fucking hate 'hypo' and 'immature' people. I am alreadi very immature, if ur worse then me, u might as well jus slap urself each time u wink. And HYPO! screw it man. No more mr nice guy around any more. Though its a small matter, though it can be talked out. But its not about that. Its the brotherhood, the respect and trust that we have. If u jus cant keep that in ur head, then screw you. Shit!

Learn to deal with what u have, and deal it with some effort. If u jus think its that simple, and everything is solve in one go, ur wrong! And if u still don wanna think it through, and make amends. Then screw you man, u needa doc.

I gave love up,
LOVE
YOU enter into it.

When life starts to fuck you, you fuck it back!

2009-10-09T03:38:00.002+08:00

Today woke up, continue to grind with bryan DGN. Nothing else to do sia. Whole day never smoke also, finally manage to smoke one stick. Feeling okie though. Epic, damn tired. but cant slp. don noe why. ARgh! 2moro i think grind some more! every day grind, abit no life. But atleast got something to do la. or else damn bored. k la, gonna try to turn in. Nits!

I gave love up,
LOVE
YOU enter into it.

Cleaning.

2009-10-07T14:47:00.004+08:00

Alrighty, got my room cleaned. Super sweet. I didnt know i have so much stuff. Damn i needa bigger room!

Went to check out on the bachelor apartments. Their AWESOME! serious man, i'm gonna get myself one of those in future. Swt, its like damn comfortable and simple. Screw dreams! i'm in reality. ARgh! today another super bored and tired day, i cant wait till operation power ranger! haha. thinking, should i get wasted or not? hmmm.. have to reali consider.

I gave love up,
LOVE
YOU enter into it.

Most painful things in life so far.

2009-10-07T03:54:00.003+08:00

1. To lose a person i love most.
2. To find out my legs are thrashed.
3. To know i made a great mistake, which was too late for me to do anything.
4. To see those i noe in trouble.

Whats worse? To know that i cant do no fucking shit at all and watch everything just happen infront of me. Endless pain, a life time of torture.

LIFE GOES ON.

U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

After effect!

2009-10-06T21:09:00.002+08:00

This is serious epic shit! argh! today went down to see the doc, and he said my ankle gone case le, shit! mus wait for it to heal. and it will take long long. FUCK MAN! Then went to clarence place after that, went to visit him, long time never see him sio.

Another fucking epic shit! now when i smoke, i kept vomiting. Seriously! wtf is going on inside of me man.. The feeling sucks big time.. Today siiiibeiii tired, wha piang. Slp late then wake up early, plus travel here and there. zomg sia. nvm! later get one puff, stone alreadi, sure got energy liao. if not then at most slp early lo. argh.. XD

U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

_|_

2009-10-05T17:35:00.002+08:00

aww.. time reali past very fast, and holiday sucks ass man! nothing to do, no where to go. Every one has prob, every one busy. Damn ass bored! wanna blog, also don noe wad to blog about. freak! needa get a life man, this cant go on. smoke smoke smoke!

U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

A step at a time.

2009-10-05T00:02:00.002+08:00

Today was okie la, i guess. didnt reali do much also. Smoke, eat, rest, tv, bath. Whaat else?

I have something to confess! i jus came to realize, some times maybe not all older girls are mature. It jus pisses me off man! I judged wrong! oh well, nvm. its not too late, hehe. Like wad ganesh had to say, i needa get laid. FreaK! haha, he is so right? or not? i noe, i had to take the step forward, and i did. ARGH! i love my friends! haha

U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

A day at a time.

2009-10-03T21:52:00.002+08:00

Got a serious ankle and knee injury going on. Aiyo! a problem at a time man! haha! any way, manage to catch up with my family members, and oh shit! i got caught red handed for smoking again. Fuck, why izzit that when i smoke sure either my parents or aunty see me. SO NOT COOL!

Today's a normal day, nothing much, getting used to it being back to normal. Today raining, thats why cant go any where with my foot like this, DAMN THE WEATHER! haha.. alright la. gotta go get something to munch, mouth itcy. BYE!

U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

Back!

2009-10-03T15:09:00.002+08:00

Alright man! Sry ya'll for worrying and helping with all the things that have been going on. Finally, now i am back up on my feet again. Alright! Its back to Chilling, smoking, drinking and Fun Days!
Screw everything that happened. I had to delete my previous post, so as to not affect me any further. Hows every one?! i know i've been a dick recently. Well, its over! i'm Back!

I told myself to quit smoking, but you noe wad? fuck it! haha! i live the way i wan it man! maybe next time! CIGGYY here i come!

Any one wants drinking? craving for it... but no beer pls, i hate beer >< anything but beer.

Lets begind with how i got back. I hanged up my punching bag, i fought it well, i did my dumbells, i did my push ups. I exhaust myself, have a smoke. And I'M BACK MAN! Efing! screw that! haha.. Long time never do my bags, shit my hands all swollen.

I'm not getting pushed about any more! After this, after everything, i learn to be a man, not a pussy! i fight well, and even if i lost! i lost with honour! I'm no push over. Get that in dude!

U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

Super Grinding!

2009-09-27T13:20:00.002+08:00

Alright, today gonna grind with my peeps. Shawn, clarence and bryan. Last night i just had the wierdest dream, but who cares. Not thinking about it any more. Today is gonna be a tiring day, last night i slpt like around 3? Super epic! i'm back to the cant slp mode again, don noe why. It feels like i have something in my heart, but i cant find it, it seems lost and unclear. Suddenly i just feel lost. Its alright bah, i hope soon i will get back to the right track.

I miss you.
Do u miss me?
Its alright if u dont.

Formula 1.

2009-09-26T01:33:00.005+08:00

Okie, this was a serious serious last mins thing. Last minute i received a call telling me i have 5 free tickets to the F1 race, first day. Then i was like, omg how am i gonna find ppl to go with me? so i called and ask, but only manage to get clarence and bryan. So all 3 of us went to watch the race lo. It was nice man, haha i liked the feel, was exactly the same one year back. well, took many pics and ya, we bought 3 bottle of drinks. total amount $15! ccb! expensive sia! drinking gold! haha Then after that we head to shawn's place the coffee shop and ate, and sit at the playground jus keep talking and talking. good old days, when we think back. :)

AWWW! yet another prob! lungs failing on me! freak.. i don noe if its my rib cage or lungs, but it hurts like hell. Fuck! i don wanna be in wad i've been one year back. Yet again when i think back, what happens if i'm gone? oh well.. hope everything would be alright bah..

I miss you.
Do u miss me?
Its alright if u dont.

Fishing

2009-09-24T19:52:00.004+08:00

OKIE! we went fishing today.. and... it didnt went well.. i HAVE FUCKING SUN BURNED! i'm fried man!!! it hurts like hell. Then at the end, we decided to move a damn big rock, its damn funny. we kept laughing at peter! haha damn cute la.. today was alright la.. then we went to coffee shop and play guitar.. haha bastard peter kept disturbing me. when i was recording the video.. the one i uploaded is take one.. haha there is a take two.. its for some one. so i never upload. Oh well, no more fishing first. till sun burn cools.

I miss you.
Do u miss me?
Its alright if u dont.

Mood

2009-09-23T19:15:00.003+08:00

No mood! very no mood! seriously. What has happen man?! to me, to my friend, to everyone. Why? why is every one facing probs? even my results go against me! Sad! no mood to blog also. next time then blog la. bye

Fuck up life, Loser life, No life!

Tired man!!!

2009-09-21T06:30:00.002+08:00

OMG la! haha like 4 days never slp le.. super epic! damn damn tired sia... Every one is aslp liao.. haha its like 6.30 now.. 0.o! oh well.. gotta finish up my drink..

I'm a loser, am a loser, will be a loser.

Epic!

2009-09-16T13:33:00.003+08:00

Serious. no shit! i haven blog for so damn long alreadi. OMG! Can't say i was busy or wad. Think it was lazziness that got me. Alright! now to write down what i went through, and i think its gonna be a whole load of crap!

*wait.. cant rmb XD hahax
Any way, just had my birthday like 4 days ago? It was alright. Just not use to being 18 where i can buy everything. Haha. But many things happen la, happy? unhappy? well, wad else can i say? i'm still standing. Soon the 7th month is gonna be over, and its gonna be raya! I think i'll be abit more busy, needa catch up with bestie and peeps. Or else later all sure scold me or interrogate me with brownies again! haha! Where is every one?! U all still owe me a group photo! i don care i don care! i mus have it, with ME in it.

I guess life is just getting better and better for me. After enduring it, i finally manage to pull through with good results. This time, no more mistakes, no more lies, no more stupidity. Oh man! Darel is sick now, cant reali think or type much. gotta run! tata!

New life, new things, new me.

Sad!

2009-06-20T12:37:00.002+08:00

OMG! i'm feeling so depressed. i'm sooooooo missing camp ever since it ended. No heart to mug, or do anything. How i wish time would stop, wheneveer i wanted. Like that, then i can slowly enjoy the moment. After the camp, i realize that life is not just about games and studies. But it is the friendship forged between frens, frens who will go through pain together, frens who will be there when we fall. Others might hate us for being who we are, but there is also people out there who love us for who we are. 'One man's thrash is another man's treasure'.

Ever since poly started, from FO till now. I treasured every moment, because i've met many new frens who treasured friendship the way i do. And we had fun in class, also we are serious when it comes to work too. Then RDC came, life jus couldnt get any better. more friendships were forged, and i guess, this is when i reali get to understand myself better. Knowing what i am good with and who i am better with together. Alright blog till here then, needa go out =) Tata!

New life, new things, new me.

RDC 2009

2009-06-18T21:16:00.010+08:00

When to RDC camp on monday morning and came back on wednesday. The camp ROCKS!!! its kicks ass! freakin hell, why mus it end so quick? I LOVE EVERYone in mc!!!

hmmm camp was tiring. Made many friends and most importantly had fun! poly life jus cant stop getting better. haha especially with all my friends around. Alright i don noe wad to blog about, maybe next time. ^^ Tata!

New life, new things, new me.

Busy!

2009-06-07T19:21:00.003+08:00

Okie, its been a very very very long time since i last blogged. Its bcs i am BUSY! heaps of reports and work to do, but since i saw maisarah tagging me asking me to blog, i'll then blog jus alittle. XD
Any way, school is becoming a killer, exams coming soon, and work keeps coming non-stop. I had to skip my dear bro (Alex) birthday for my work, and had to cancel soccer with izzun and sentosa with jh. Oh gosh! i'm so srry guys, i wish i could come to the events, but i just cant. Hope u guys will understand.

Weeks back was SCL kick off, and guess wad! our team, jacklai F.C got the 3rd cum 4th place. LOL! i don reali noe if its 3rd or 4th, but who cares! we are the only yr1 team that made it to semi! JACKLAI F.C!!! And yah, there are heaps of stuff happening in school also.

This is a picture i took at mac, nothign special. just that i didnt take any pics in school, so i jus upload wad i got. XD

ALL HAIL PETER! haha! this is my classmate, his name is peter aka the bangala! haha this was taken i think during pd lesson. or... maybe not. i cant rmb! He is the all time joker in my class, even i lose to him! haha

Okie, i'll blog till here, needa finish up my report. Blog next time! bye!

New life, new things, new me.

Sentosa!

2009-05-05T23:06:00.006+08:00

Alright, finally now i have ALITTLE spare time to blog. This are the pics taken during the last minutes sentosa outing. It was seriously fun, though the duration was short. But i believe every one had fun that day. Hmmm. wad else to write? let me see, school has been really tiring. Have kayak training, plus many projects and all. But i can still manage, like what the kayak ppl teach me, " DON GIVE UP, PUSH YOURSELF, BCS ONLY THEN YOU WILL IMPROVE ". The kayak training really teach me alot of priceless things, but still i wonder if i am physically fit for it. No worries i can start from now! ^^ alright blog till here then, wanna go slp alreadi. Nits!

New life, new things, new me.

Poly!

2009-04-22T19:34:00.004+08:00

Its been like the 3rd day of poly only, and its getting scarier each time. Oh well, i guess this is life, no pain no gain. Have like 7 modules, and the maths is reali.... omg! haha the book is like erm, 400pages? i don noe. Its seriously very thick. haha. Any way school is fun and all, meet many new frens each day, i even saw some old fren, like owen and yu ting. Wow, both of them change so much. I'm kinda beginning to like poly laugh and also the things i'm studying about. It reali sets me thinking each time a new topic is taught. hmmm, hope i'd score well for my first yr bah, bcs i still have a long way ahead. ^^

New life, new things, new me.

Orientation

2009-04-13T21:30:00.004+08:00

Okie, it feels like forever since i last blog. Anyway! this few pics was taken during my orientation. Every one had fun, and i'm sure we all miss those two days. The first day of orientation was kinda scary at first. I was the first to arrive and i talked to thawit and ong, had a self introduction. Then slowly my classmates start arriving. At first i was really nervous and shy, but hell with it la! LETS BE FRIENDS! haha so yupps, shake hands with some of them and introduce myself. Luckily!!!!!!! there are 2 friends whom i alreadi noe and they are in my class!!! ahh!! so happy, haha some one i noe. One is zul, and the other is syahira. Wow, singapore sure is small. ^^ The first day of orientation we had some games and we kinda familarize the routes and peeps. Then came the second day!!! which!! wasnt very good for me. i was asked to act as a girl for our performance! wtf! come on man, i can be a gay for you guys, not a girl la.. its tough man! haha.
Alright i'll blog till here first, gotta go eat. TaTa ^^

New life, new things, new me.

Days!

2009-03-29T22:47:00.002+08:00

Day by day, time is being wasted. Its really, seriously getting more and more bored as the days pass, another 1 more week and my orientation will start! I hope that i have a nice class with nice people in it, or else it's going to be hell for me. Today Nat called me to go ecp to fish, but it was alreadi too late, i was alreadi out and i did not have much time to prepare my gear. So i told him that i'd go next time. Alex is away till the third, he went to taiwan i think, that ass hole ps me so long, ever since after the party, "FUCK".

Recently, my mood has been getting better, confidence lvl coming back. OH ya! i went to GNC to buy this protein formula to drink, fcuk, it cost me like $120 sia! damn ex! and when i drink it, it is supposed to improve my muscle, LOL ><" Another thing, is my pc spoil again, wha liao eh! damn sianx, cant do anything. Recently i've been spending alot, but i know everything is worth it. I didnt feel like its a waste to get my stuff. Now, i'm broke T.T. haha Alright blog till here then, TATA!

New life, new things, new me.

Back!

2009-03-25T01:35:00.003+08:00

Okie finally back blogging, the last few days i seriously didnt feel like touching my blog. But its been so long, no choice. Erm this time round its about me going to kallang ice skating. For peeps out there who haven tried it, IT ROCKS!! its my first time la, and i haven fall. haha! ^^ envy envy. Well it was a very tiring day, but it was fun.
This is my cousin Jerom, haha. Best cousin one could ask for, just that he needs some enlightenment for his studies, other then that, his the perfect cousin. ^^
Okie, i can explain this! my new LEVIS slippers! their black! FCUK! you noe why? bcs of the skating skates damn dirty, made my slippers all black! FCUK FCUK FCUK T.T!! And beside my slipper's is my new shades, haha bought it not long ago. Calvin Klein, and its cheap , got a discount from the aunty there. ^^

Thats my dog jackson, haha slping with me. OH! my dad will be coming back soon, and he loves jackson, think his gonna check up on me again if i got take care of jackson well or not. ><
Alright, gonna blog till here. Didnt write much, lazy too. haha any way gotta go, blog next time. Tata. ^^

New life, new things, new me.

Dreams!

2009-03-15T12:01:00.002+08:00

Recently, i've been having a hard time sleeping. Each time i close my eyes i see things which i don wanna see. I think i seriously need help, if this carries on i will surely turn crazy one day. Another one month plus, poly will start. I hope that it will keep me super busy, though the chances of bumping into each other is seriously damn freaking high, but i also don care. As long as i'm kept busy, i will stop thinking. This few months that has passes after my O's, i see that alot of people have changed alot, this world is really very amazing. How things work, things break, and come's to life again. People always say we have to treasure what we have, like the people we love or the things that is most valuable to us. I guess this sentence doesnt work for me alreadi, the word ' cherish' is just a word full of bull crap. What is there to cherish when we ourself are not cherished. Yester day i talk to jasmine on the phone (sms), we some how mention about loyalty, what is loyalty? I think that loyalty is alreadi history, long lost alreadi. Life,life,life... Its unfair ><

New life, new things, new me.

Tidy!

2009-03-13T18:27:00.002+08:00

Today i stayed home the whole day to pack my fucking messy and untidy room. Erm did some cleaning here and there and arrange some of my stuff, i even hook up a photo. My Cuz went back to malaysia for the week end alreadi, so i will be home alone for this 3 days. But its okie, haha. ^^

While packing my room, i came across something. I sat down for like and hour jus looking at it over and over again. It is the letter that was given to me, during christmas from 'her'. Seriously, at that moment my heart sank, tears almost came out. But i held it back, i force myself to pretend nothing happen. I know by doing so, i'm lying to myself, but i seriously have no choice. Ahhhh! wad the heck! zzz lol. i sound like a bitch. Any way, its time for me to take a bath, blog other times then.

New life, new things, new me.

Missing!

2009-03-12T01:13:00.002+08:00

Out of no where, i went to check the 'blog' again. I browsed through the pics, read the contents. My heart sank. I feel like a small person, trapped in a enclosed area shouting your name, but u cant hear me. Its been so long alreadi, why am i still like this? I dont like this feeling, i wan it to go. But i cant help it, but to live with it. Alot of people keep telling me, one day you will find me again, but i myself noe, u wont.

Any way, if any one is looking at my blog, can u tell me what is love? Is it suppose to be a good feeling or a bad feeling? Is love forever? Some one jus give me ur opinion on it. I reali need to noe your views.

I'm starting to move on, i'm getting over it. But still, i don feel very confortable. Izzit normal? i think it is. Any way its freakin late now, gotta turn in la. I'm jus being random, >< lol. haha!

New life, new things, new me.

Stained!

2009-03-11T15:51:00.003+08:00

ZzZ, Seriously life is bored!! ( for now) haha, there is nothing much to do. Just waiting for april to come, then can go school. Because thats the only way it will keep me occupied, and most importantly meet more friends! haha Friends is what we really need, they make life alittle easier for us at times. So since i have nothing to do, i edited the two pics which i took at the pub back then.

Does alex look like a zombie? bcs i think he does. lol ^^
Oh, Kennyyyyy! haha, always hear alex call him this way. ><

New life, new things, new me.

2 Days!

2009-03-09T14:24:00.002+08:00

Okie its been 2 days since i last blogged alreadi, seriously, life's getting kinda fuck up. Not sure why or how, it just is. Currently waiting for alex to ask his friend about the pub job offer, i seriously hope i can work at there la, each time i think about it some how i feel that it will kick ass. haha. Any way my aunt from australia is coming 2moro night, wha! super scary! haha coming to check up on me.

Another thing, any peeps out there who is viewing my block, please leave the fucking comments to yourself please, bcs of ur fucking shit comments, other people are fighting. Fuck you man _|_
I just dont get it, why are you people so childish man? GROW UP LA! freaks, its about time la, all acting like a small kid. How i wish that in this world every one is matured enough to think, i just come across so many people who don reali think, and act as if they are very matured. If u reali think that way then tell it to my face la! don judge yourself, I JUDGE YOU! sick man.

Okie, now currently is raining, wanted to continue to slp, but my dog's collar bell keeps ringing, no choice have to wake up. I guess nothings gonna happne today also, Alex went to work, i wannna go gym also cannot, its raining so heavy. AIYO! wad a bad day.

New life, new things, new me.

Gym!

2009-03-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

Okie, today i woke up, get readi for gym. Then met bryan at my place and we started our journey. We both walked from my place all the way to woodlands gym, it was seriously hot today, Damn it! Then when we reach the gym, i did the usual and after that we headed home. And the day ended, reali nothing much to talk about. Hmmm, i think 2moro alex wants to go fishing, haha i also don noe. See how lo ^^

New life, new things, new me.

Haircut!

2009-03-05T20:07:00.000+08:00

okie, today everything i do, seems to be rushing. First of all, i woke up at around 1, read my sms's, bloody hell, everyday sure got ppl sms me or call me in the morning, haha nvm, its cool. Then i need to take my passport size photo for my NYP form, so i went down with bryan, got my hair cut. ZZZ! Every one! my hair is short again, feels like i'm going back to admiralty sec like that, haha. Then i went to buy a bottle of black hair spray and asked bryan to help me spray my hair black, bcs in the photo i cant have long and coloured hair. So, took the photo, went home to bath, thats all lo. Today reali seriously nothing much. Hope there would be another activity soon bah, or else i'm gonna get bored too death le.

New life, new things, new me.

Sick!

2009-03-04T21:11:00.000+08:00

Today yet another boring day. Nat jio me to go fishing on friday but i told him alot of us cant make it so i suggested to him that he company his girlfren, but he told me he broke alreadi. Aiyo, now a days many of us peeps broke le, all poor. And the best thing to do without using much money is FISHING! haha erm. today i woke up then called alex and asked him company me go SATA to do my check up, for the poly enrolment la.. So yah, will be going to poly soon, kinda excited about it. Oh well then after that bloody check up, we went to catch a move ' kung fu chef'. Tell u wad, its a damn bored and stupid show, but kinda funny also la. haha. Then after the show, i went home and bath my dog. And thats about it lo, okie la. Thats all about today la.

New life, new things, new me.

Bored!

2009-03-03T20:07:00.000+08:00

Okie today is a freaking bored day! its like always raining here! WTF! any way i slept till like 3 p.m today, and in the process, tons of ppl keep smsing me and calling me.. Any way, i woke up and did stuff ( usual stuff ) then called Alex and found out that he also just woke up! haha he skipped his meeting or wadever i think. So we went to gym and around 4, and worked out, haha today it is me who gave up first, seriously cant take it, i've been coming to gym often lo! and a lost 5KG! haha proud proud. ^^ then after gym we went down to cause way to eat, that fucking alex made me eat like 5 eggs. wha! cannot take it, felt like my body is breaking down due to the eggs. haha After that we decided to go play basketball, so we called up some of his peeps and ask if they wanna play or not, only a few said okie. Erm. thats all i guess, the game have not start yet, they all can only play at night, late night. So i came home first and blog alittle lo. Guesss wad, i finally got the pictures of me and my cousin, the pictures that we took the other day when we go to orchard. It was also a fuck up day! my cousin bought 1 towel and boxer for like $150++ lol. wad a turd! i bought a puma pants only, $20 haha cheap ^^ okie i'll just post the pics and log off then.

New life, new things, new me.

Sing!

2009-03-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

Wha today was kick ass la! haha Me, bryan, alex and kenny met up at orchard MRT to pass this little girl her clothes she bought from kenny's sis. Then after that we walked all the way to orchard hotel. HAHA! while walking pass there i was looking at the sex shop, it was filled with thousands of dildo's and condoms. But then, FUCK! kenny and alex PS me! knn sia i got lost.. lol. then i ran out and saw a guy in red, and realise ohhh! its kenny. haha then went to the orchard hotel HR and we wanted to fill up the application form. Then the lady saw us and said " I wan your hair short, and BLACK!" wha liao! in my heart i was like 'wtf! you need worker now, not i need money!' haha any way, we told her that we will get our hair done and come back later. So we walked off and Alex decided to go sing K. But kenny wanted to watch movie, bcs its cheaper. So they both argued all the way till we reach party world. Then finally Alex said ' okie! kenny, u come out $1, the rest i come out for you' haha they both ar, damn funny, me and bryan jus stay one corner and laugh at them. So the final decision. SING K! lol haha its my first time though, but fuck it la.. haha jus go in and sing my hearts out.

Seriously it was a fun day la, but certain songs made me felt sad. It reminded me of a lot, but don worry, its a new life now, with new stuff and new me! haha ^^ its my fault, its my choice. Alright blog till here then.

New life, new things, new me.

Pub!

2009-03-02T13:35:00.000+08:00

Alright! its a new day. erm... start things out, i'll continue on yesterday's event. Me and alex cab down to hougang ave 2 to meet kenny's fren, after meeting her we waited for ken and we sing a birthday song for her since it was her birthday. Then we stayed at her block's void deck to eat the birthday cake that alex bought but i choose it. While eating, THAT FUCKING ALEX! take the cake's cream and rub it on kenny, then a war broke out. Guess wad!?! every one had cream on their face except me! haha it was damn funny la.. Then no one realise until alex saw be staying far away from them, and he shouted " EH! darel! looks like you have not gotton any cream on ur face yet" after saying that, he dug a finger full of cream, shit man i started to freak out. HAHA! then i went to the table and took the WHOLE CAKE! and chase after him. haha damn funny la..

Okie, so there is only 2 pics, and damn it. i didnt even get a chance to take a photo with the birthday girl. Aiyah! nvm la.. haha ^^ After that we went down to gorges(don noe how to spell), to have a drink! Erm.. we ordered one barrel, calamari and garlic bread. When we were there we saw ALWYN! haha damn it la.. he rocks la, he is like damn fucking cool. SHIT! i jus remember, i never took a pic with him also.. damn it la. okie, move on! erm we drank lo, and played pool, and dice! damn it la don noe why ar kenny like cheating lo, i always had to drink. haha! erm, we drank till like 4 then headed home lo, me kenny and alex were the last 3. haha birthday girl, was tired so she left. WHAHA! i stole the barrel and a decanter! haha wth sia.. alex took damn many cups la! haha

New life, new things, new me.

The fresh start!

2009-03-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

Today was seriously a lousy day. It was raining the whole day, there isnt much that i could do. As usual woke up, did my stuff and stayed infront of the pc, i wanted to head to the gym but my muscle was seriously in pain and so i decided to make every sunday a rest day for me, as for the rest of the days i would go to the gym in the morning.

Why must man go to gym constant? keep in shape? to build up their body? for women? health?
wadever the answer, in the end its still bcs of wanting more face, more confidence and more say. Why are women so in love with male's with a "hot" body? izzit that neccessary? so what if we have a fat and short body, i think they should accept as who we are. Each time i go to the gym, i see all the guys who train so hard and strain every single inch of their muscle for women, i will look down at the floor and sigh in my heart. My heart will then say " what a waste!"

At around 7 p.m alex called me and asked me if i wanna go down to kenny's there for a gathering, and bcs i didnt do much the whole day so i told him 'okie'. Then i changed and waited for alex, seriously. ALEX IS A LIAR! he said he bathing but when i was at his door step, i heard his phone ring and he answered! Bull crap man! haha. its okie la, no hard feelings, we're both good pals. Erm, bryan also text me earlier on, he said that he was facing some kinda problem, well i couldnt say or do much , jus hope he is alright and thats good. Bryan, bryan -.-"

So, will be heading down to kenny's and will update when the day is over.

New life, new things, new me.

Life!

2009-03-01T13:07:00.000+08:00

Many things have affected me drastically, this past few months. There was ups and also downs, as each obstacle hits me and surprises me in many different ways. I face them all, overcoming them and finally learn from them.

To every one who knows me and reads my blog. Thanks for doing so. I just wanna say that life is fragile, treasure every one around you.Okie enough of this bull crap, i'm gonna blog now!

Hmmm, let me start with friday night though its over alreadi but i wanna write it out so that next time when i look at my blog, i can remember every single thing. On friday, around 7 me and my cousin met up with alex, while we headed to alex's place, my cousin didnt wanna wait with me, so he headed to admiralty for his dental check up. As usual, had to wait for alex and guess wad? he was slping. I called him up and asked him to hurry. So i waited for like 20 mins and headed off to admiralty Mrt to meet up with my cousin and we took a bus to tampines it was a seriously long ride la! and my cousin dose off. haha left me and alex listening to music. When we arrive at tampines, we had to wait for kenny and nick( don noe how to spell his name) when they arrive we all took a smoke and left for another bus to changi aloha. while waiting for the bus nick kept joking on kenny's sperm, and it was like damn funny la! haha he said that kenny sperms are like recruits in the army, while ours are commandos. haha! kick ass man!

When we arrive at the chalet, alwin came to pick us up and escorted us to the chalet. At the chalet, nel and every one was there. I met tons of peeps and we all started talking. The host was away at that time, so we waiting for him and when he came back the party started! Every one drink ar!!!! haha my first drink was chivas with coke, and it tasted like shit man! so we all had fun and drank till like 3. And i was pissed drunk, i couldnt even walk straight and every one had to carry me. I sat at the grass field and vomited all the way till 4, then i really cant take it any more and i told my cousin to cab me back. So alex and nat carry me to the cab and we took the cab home. Guess thats all i can say about that night, bcs i was so drunk i cant recall much now. haha!

New life, new things, new me.